Friday, October 2, 2009

A Letter to Mom

Hi Mom!

Your viewing was tonight. It went well. We hope you liked it! Bill put together some Showtune CDs to play in the background. It made for quite the send off!!!
You looked so pretty. Your white dress and your pretty white hair made you look angelic. You truly look like your in a very peaceful sleep. Even though I've now seen you 3 times and I've touched you and held you and watched you and know that you are gone...it still doesn't seem real. I'm sure as the days go on it will slowly sink in. Yes, we both know that you are here in spirit and you will continue to watch over your posterity, but it's just not the same.

I can think of so many things I will miss.
Your laugh. Your stories. Your generosity. Your gratitude. Your selflessness. You have been such a good example to all your posterity. I hope we will all take the things we have learned from you and share them with the world. It will truly make it a better place.

Thank you for blessing our lives with music! I'll never forget the night you and Dad brought home the Magnus Chord Organ and taught me my first lesson in reading music. Although that Organ is also probably why my left hand is a much weaker piano player then my right. Never-the-less, it opened a whole new world of music to me. Being to make my own music. Playing first the Magnus Chord Organ and then onto piano lessons and then, by default, occasionally having the opportunity to play the organ for church. Although I still truly don't know what I'm doing. I'm brave enough to fake it!!! Thanks for the music!

Thanks for teaching me to be responsible. Of course there were sometimes in my life that I wasn't very responsible. I still have learned responsibility from you.

Thanks for teaching us to put God first. Thanks for blessing our home with the Gospel of Jesus Christ and for helping us become a forever family!

Thanks for making the 7 Dwarfs our family symbol. Who would've thunk it would last all these years?!!!

Thanks for all the fun! For driving me and my friends everywhere. The adventures in Frightening Falcon are still some of the greatest memories. Thanks for always picking people up to get them where they needed to be! It was a never problem for you to drive from one end of town to the other to pick everyone up.

Thanks for your generosity. Not just towards me but towards all of us! You never saw the reason for money to be sitting in a bank when it could be blessing the lives of others and you have freely given and we all have been blessed by it!

Thanks for trusting me enough to let me go. Just like that goofy saying, you set me free and I came back...so I really am yours!

Thanks for letting me be such a huge part of your last 9 years! As Eddie say, "It's an honor and a privilege" to have been able to serve you. I will admit it wasn't always easy and I wasn't always where I wanted to be, but it has provided more learning and growth. I probably didn't even realize how much and probably still have lots to learn....your always the one to get me started though. Although I do know I don't ever want to work in the medical field.

Thanks for your patience, your endurance and for letting me know you were ready to go. It's the only thing that is making this a little bit easier. I know you and Dad are together and with so many other family members and friends. It makes it less scary to join you someday...but please not anytime soon!

There are so many other things I should thank you for, but my brain is almost numb and I should get to bed. We have a big day tomorrow! I hope you will enjoy your send off.

I'm not speaking at your funeral, so this is part of my farewell. Perhaps I'll keep writing you on your blog! That's the question I should've asked you to answer for me!! Do they have blogs in Heaven? Not, is Elvis really dead?!! You haven't answered yet though!

I will think of you everyday! Your bed is still up in the front room. Eddie asked tonight if I was going to be okay when he took it down. I told him I didn't know. Because you've been out of the house since August 7th....it's hard not to think you're just across the river. I guess I should remember now...you're closer than that!!! That is what I will have to keep remembering!

I remember back a few years ago when we were sharing a room...every night before we went to sleep, you would thank me for everything I had done for you that day! You were so gracious. I hope to be that gracious someday! Thanks for your gratitude!

I will miss you more as time goes on and it really sinks in that you are gone, but we are a forever family and I have that to look forward to. Oh yeah! Thank you for taking Eddie in and for loving him, sometimes in spite of him. We are all works in progress and he's still having a hard time adjusting to this passive family! I hope that someday others will see the good in him and be able to forgive, until that day...my love will see him through and your love and kindness will be an example for him to follow as it already is!

Okay, I'm done for now!

I'll miss you and love you forever!

Bon Voyage!

Sandy

Monday, September 28, 2009

Reunited!

Mom passed away this morning.
They are back together again!
A viewing will be held
Friday, Oct. 2nd from 4pm -8pm
at Risher's Mortuary
1316 Whittier Blvd
Montebello, CA
Her funeral Services will be held
Saturday, Oct 3rd at 11:30 a.m.
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints
Passons Ward
6203 Passons Blvd. Pico Rivera Ca
Burial will follow the funeral at 2:00 p.m. at
Rose Hills
Garden of Rest

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

WOW!

Today she was just nuts! Can't put together the right words to make an intelligent sentence. She refused most of anything they wanted to do to her today. I made her put the oxygen back on. She refused dialysis at first, but Marty talked her into it. Unfortunately, she wasn't any better after dialysis. I had to call the Dr. tonight. HA! They keep drawing blood from her left arm, when she has a perfectly good pik line!!! So, I called the dr. to inform him that the blood had better been drawn from her pik line. If I go tomorrow and find more bruises and gauze and tape. Someone's going to be in big trouble!

So there you have it!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Back in the Hospital

She was moved back to the hospital last night. Her blood pressure was too low. She spent 19 hours in the ER. Now she's in room 508. She might be sent back to Rio Hondo after dialysis tomorrow if they don't find anything wrong with her. She was much more alert than she has been, but she was still goofy! If you ever saw the SNL skit with Tom Hanks on the game show....short term memory guy! Everytime she found out she was in the hospital she was so surprised! She must have asked 10 times. The last time she asked what hotel she was in!!!!
So...another day...another adventure!!!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Oops!

I guess I haven't updated in a few days. Now that she's at Rio Hondo, there's not a lot to report. Dr. Yu called today and the bone marrow biopsy came back negative for everything.
They got her a new mattress...an air mattress for her bed sore. It makes the mattress higher than the bed rails, so hopefully she won't fall out of bed!!! Yesterday, I noticed that she had a cottonball and tape on her wrist. The bozo's had drawn blood out of her wrist instead of her pik line. I made sure Dr. Yu knew about that and I will double check tomorrow with Rio Hondo that he did give that order!!! She was complaining tonight about pureed food, so tomorrow I will try and get the speech therapist to come see her so she can have real food again! She sent me home at 6:30 tonight. She was much more her normal self today! I'll write again if there's a change or something amusing to report!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

5 and 6 got back together!!!

I never knew they were separated!!!!
The mother is doing okay at Rio Hondo. I was happier with her care there, today more than yesterday. She ate all her lunch and dinner. Physical therapy and Occupational therapy came to visit and evaluate. She will start both tomorrow.
She doesn't understand why she has to be moved and hurt! She has to be changed and rolled from side to side to keep off the bed sore on her bottom!!!!
I'm eager to see how she progesses with therapy!!! Stay tuned!

Monday, September 7, 2009

New abode

She was moved last night around 9pm to Rio Hondo. She's in room 117.
She was mostly sleepy today. She was alert in the morning, but she was achy so she had a vicadin. She was very sweaty all day. Her right hand is starting to swell again. Yee haw! Tomorrow is dialysis. We'll see what they say about the swelling. I did see her bed sore today and it's much better than the last time I saw it!!!! That's it!